Okay those of you who are out there start praying! I am going to submit a children's book for publication by January 2011. I have one story finished and ready so I don't know what has been keeping me from sending it in. FEAR really. But Now is the time for bravery so Pray on and I'll keep you posted.
Thanks friends! My love to you.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
Quiting work to work on what matters most
After thinking more about the question, "Why do we do the things we do?" I came to the realization that I had been lying to myself and to everyone else about why I was working at the YMCA.
I told everyone that it was just to get out of the house and for some fun money. The truth is that I was trying to take control without looking like it. I was trying to please people by not being "just" a stay at home mom. I was looking for a way to "provide" even though God has supplied all our needs. I just couldn't let it go.
So I am quitting the Y after this month as an act of faith, trust and hope in God. I am going to let him lead for once. To honor Mitch and trust him to provide as God has called him to do. And because I see my son and daughter and realize that I have been saying that they are not enough when in fact they are the most important thing and deserve all of my attention.
(I wrote this in July 2010)
It has been three months since I quit working at the YMCA and I am loving life. I have more time with the kids, and keeping my home clean and providing meals is so much less of a burden. I still don't have all the time I would like to do everything that I want to get accomplished, but what person, let alone mother, does? I rejoice that I am doing what God has called me to at this time in my life. I am continuing to embrace being a mother and a wife and being proud that that is all I do all day. Pretty important stuff...or so I'm told.
I'll keep you posted on more blessings that come from my slowing down and embracing God's calling on my life. Grace and Peace to you all in Christ Jesus!
I told everyone that it was just to get out of the house and for some fun money. The truth is that I was trying to take control without looking like it. I was trying to please people by not being "just" a stay at home mom. I was looking for a way to "provide" even though God has supplied all our needs. I just couldn't let it go.
So I am quitting the Y after this month as an act of faith, trust and hope in God. I am going to let him lead for once. To honor Mitch and trust him to provide as God has called him to do. And because I see my son and daughter and realize that I have been saying that they are not enough when in fact they are the most important thing and deserve all of my attention.
(I wrote this in July 2010)
It has been three months since I quit working at the YMCA and I am loving life. I have more time with the kids, and keeping my home clean and providing meals is so much less of a burden. I still don't have all the time I would like to do everything that I want to get accomplished, but what person, let alone mother, does? I rejoice that I am doing what God has called me to at this time in my life. I am continuing to embrace being a mother and a wife and being proud that that is all I do all day. Pretty important stuff...or so I'm told.
I'll keep you posted on more blessings that come from my slowing down and embracing God's calling on my life. Grace and Peace to you all in Christ Jesus!
Swim lessons
Kennedi turned into a fish today! It was her first swim lesson with Mrs. Zsiga and she had a blast. I was so impressed as she fearlessly stepped into the pool with out me. Then she sat beaming a smile as she learned to put her face in the water, first a cheek, then her chin and finally her lips to blow bubbles. After learning swim arms and kick legs she turned into superman, blowing bubbles and gliding through the water with the greatest of ease. Next, it was bouncing time and following in my short footsteps, the water was over her head, so she got to hop on the steps instead. Didn't seem to faze her though. Happy heart intact she jumped on till it was time to go. First lesson over, excited for next week, we drove home to practice swimming in the bathtub.
Piano
We just got a piano!!! I am so excited! I had been praying about it and then heard of a friend's mom was wanting to sell theirs. And it came today!!!
I am so excited for music to fill our home. I am so thankful to God for the blessing of this piano.
I started writing that months ago but couldn't put into words how grateful I was and I was also worried that if I wrote about it but didn't follow through in playing every day that I would be failing. I worried that if I didn't use it enough it would make my desire for it and my purchase of it. I know that it was inexpensive and that I had been praying about it and felt that it was an answer to prayer, but my fear of rejection and not living up to supposed expectations has a hold on me that I am just now starting to battle.
So today as part of the battle I will let those of you who read my blog know that I have a piano. I have played it on and off over the last few months and the kids love it. I love it when I get the chance to play but still wish I played more often. It is a beautiful addition to our home in decor as well as fun to be had and music to hear. I am hopeful that it will be a source of joy and music for years to come for my family and generations to come.
One of my favorite things right now is that Kennedi calls it a "pianio" and that she and William love to bang away on it whenever I let them.
God is good and I will not let his blessing turn to a source of condemnation anymore. Thanks for being part of my journey. :-)
I am so excited for music to fill our home. I am so thankful to God for the blessing of this piano.
I started writing that months ago but couldn't put into words how grateful I was and I was also worried that if I wrote about it but didn't follow through in playing every day that I would be failing. I worried that if I didn't use it enough it would make my desire for it and my purchase of it. I know that it was inexpensive and that I had been praying about it and felt that it was an answer to prayer, but my fear of rejection and not living up to supposed expectations has a hold on me that I am just now starting to battle.
So today as part of the battle I will let those of you who read my blog know that I have a piano. I have played it on and off over the last few months and the kids love it. I love it when I get the chance to play but still wish I played more often. It is a beautiful addition to our home in decor as well as fun to be had and music to hear. I am hopeful that it will be a source of joy and music for years to come for my family and generations to come.
One of my favorite things right now is that Kennedi calls it a "pianio" and that she and William love to bang away on it whenever I let them.
God is good and I will not let his blessing turn to a source of condemnation anymore. Thanks for being part of my journey. :-)
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Dirty Diapers
Poo is just gross no matter how you look at it.
My son has a knack for the monsoon of poo effect.
And it usually happens every two to three hours.
Or twenty minutes after I changed his old one.
One wipe will definitely not do the trick,
It is a two to three wipe job and lots of hand washing afterward.
I guess it is true what they say "What goes in must come out."
Just wish it looked prettier and smelled sweeter when it does.
My son has a knack for the monsoon of poo effect.
And it usually happens every two to three hours.
Or twenty minutes after I changed his old one.
One wipe will definitely not do the trick,
It is a two to three wipe job and lots of hand washing afterward.
I guess it is true what they say "What goes in must come out."
Just wish it looked prettier and smelled sweeter when it does.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Why do we do the things we do?
After a conversation with Mitch last night I find myself musing about this subject.
Why do I do the things that I do?
I do them because I think I am supposed to. But is that enough? I don't think so.
I also do a lot of things to please people or to gain their approval. But that just brings along feelings of guilt if I don't perform to their standard, or the standard that I think they are placing on me.
Doing things for other people certainly isn't all bad. I believe that is a core value as a Christ follower but that is not the type of "doing" that I am talking about.
The things in life that I do, the things that drive my every moment, why do I do them?
I want so much more than to do them because I am supposed to. I want even my good things to be more than a check list of daily requirements. How does one live doing everything to glorify God? Shouldn't that be my goal? I am a Christian after all.
But how often do I just do...without even consulting or considering Him? A LOT!
Most of the time, if I am honest, I do my own thing and "pray" it goes well. But I want to change.
So now I am in a place of pulling in two directions. There is the world on one side and doing all things to glorify God on the other. And trying to wrap my mind around making choices to honor God, not worrying about what everyone else will think or would do can make me feel crazy some times.
Doing all things to glorify God seems like a stretch when I am just trying to keep it together while changing a poopy diaper and helping my 3 year old go to the bathroom at the same time.
Where is my joy in chopping potatoes for dinner? Do I glorify God when I iron the clothes and vacuum floors?
I do hope so but most of all I hope that I see more of Him throughout my day and that I thank him for the everyday things that I find mundane but might just make Him smile.
I long to be transformed but the renewing of my mind seems way beyond my grasp. Not impossible just not something that I can do...on my own.
Why do I do the things that I do?
I do them because I think I am supposed to. But is that enough? I don't think so.
I also do a lot of things to please people or to gain their approval. But that just brings along feelings of guilt if I don't perform to their standard, or the standard that I think they are placing on me.
Doing things for other people certainly isn't all bad. I believe that is a core value as a Christ follower but that is not the type of "doing" that I am talking about.
The things in life that I do, the things that drive my every moment, why do I do them?
I want so much more than to do them because I am supposed to. I want even my good things to be more than a check list of daily requirements. How does one live doing everything to glorify God? Shouldn't that be my goal? I am a Christian after all.
But how often do I just do...without even consulting or considering Him? A LOT!
Most of the time, if I am honest, I do my own thing and "pray" it goes well. But I want to change.
So now I am in a place of pulling in two directions. There is the world on one side and doing all things to glorify God on the other. And trying to wrap my mind around making choices to honor God, not worrying about what everyone else will think or would do can make me feel crazy some times.
Doing all things to glorify God seems like a stretch when I am just trying to keep it together while changing a poopy diaper and helping my 3 year old go to the bathroom at the same time.
Where is my joy in chopping potatoes for dinner? Do I glorify God when I iron the clothes and vacuum floors?
I do hope so but most of all I hope that I see more of Him throughout my day and that I thank him for the everyday things that I find mundane but might just make Him smile.
I long to be transformed but the renewing of my mind seems way beyond my grasp. Not impossible just not something that I can do...on my own.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
First Musing
Well I cannot believe that I am joining the world of blogs but with every typed word I grow in excitement and anticipation. I am not sure what this will turn out to be. It might just be a fun journal of experiences, or a place to share my latest children's story, I'm sure there will be a fair share of rantings but I hope that it will be enjoyable for you and for me. I look forward to feedback and getting to know more about myself and all of you...web people :-)
This one is short but it is late so I am going to sign out. More to come soon I assure you.
This one is short but it is late so I am going to sign out. More to come soon I assure you.
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