Why worry?

This stay in the hospital has helped drill the scripture in Matthew 6, 25“For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26“Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27“And who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life? 28“And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30“But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31“Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ 32“For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33“But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

34 "So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

One of the best things about being here under doctor supervision is also one of the worst things; they check in on Wyatt a lot. The more they check the more stuff they find to worry about or at least look into. A week and a half ago they came in and had two different ideas about what the bright spot in the ultrasounds could be. One was CMV and the other was cystic fibrosis. Both are very scary and make life for a baby harder so with a premi it would be all the more though for him to be healthy and get to come home. I had my blood taken and the tests came back on Sunday. Thankfully they have pretty much ruled them out.
I had the antibodies for CMV but that just means that I've been exposed to the virus at some point in my life and though they cannot say when I was exposed the ultrasound is a better diagnostic for CMV and have shown no further indications that I passed CMV to Wyatt. If CMV is if contracted by the mother during pregnancy, it can be very dangerous for the baby. It can result in blindness, deafness, bleeding in the brain etc. So while I have never worried about that before...or ever heard of it before, I am glad to know pretty conclusively that Wyatt does not have that.
The cystic fibrosis test also came back "negative." And both parents have to be carriers to pass it on to their children, so we are out of the woods on that too. Which is good to know because it is another scary disease. It causes mucus to become thick and sticky. The mucus builds up and clogs passages in the lungs, pancreas, and many other organs in the body. Which can cause all kinds of problems for infants.
So thanks be to God that he is taking care of Wyatt and all the details of his health, even ones I had never thought to worry about.
One cool thing about this week of waiting was that Mitch and I had a lot of time to think about what our lives would look like with a special needs baby. It was definitely overwhelming to think about, but we were also thankful that if he did have special needs he would be in our family. Because we would love him with God's love, knowing that God chose to make him that way for His glory not by some medical mistake. I am definitely sitting here thankful for a healthy report, but also willing to take on whatever God gives us knowing full well that He will provide the strength that we need for whatever He gives us. I want to be a willing servant, ready to take whatever He decides is for my best and "live life to the hilt" no matter where life takes us.